Ugh...here I am.

Do you ever feel like there are so many things that you should do, but you either don't feel like doing any of them, or you just don't know where to start. Blah. That is where I am today, this week, this winter. What is most annoying about this place is that I can't comprehend that this is okay. I am loved just where I am, just who I am. I don't have to do anything, be anyone, or say anything...and God loves me all the more. I don't get that. How can I change my attitude and receive this truth.

The thought that comes to mind is to just thank Him. Thank you God for my health and the health of my family. Thank you for my legs and my speed that enable me to run. Thank you God for my husband who puts up with my crap. Thank you for my kids and our great family. I believe that there are even greater things in store. Thank you for the monotony of my days. Thank you for the wealth that we have. We are so rich. Thank you for the poop stain on the carpet...Micah will eventually get trained. God, give me a grateful heart. Give me a grateful heart. Move in me with deep gratitude. I need you in my life and you appeared in your Son. Thank you Lord.

I will put one foot in front of the other today. And that is good enough.

I haven't done my 6 miles yet...not looking forward to it....just one more thing on my list of things to do. Here is my white flag...I surrender. I give up control.